I think... I feel.. I want... I really don't know anymore. It just feels like i'm waltzing with the fog. Ever since i started settling into the mugging pace, things have seemed very bleak, dull, blur. Not cool.
Moving on, i found this really cool website www.dontevenreply.com where this joker (ttm) started replying ads he found on the criagslist. He makes my day, he really inspires me to be write back to those junk emails that tells me that i have won idk how many millions of dollars from the Pepsi company. LOL, i don't like drinking pepsi. I don't even drink pepsi.
Hmm, i know i haven't seemed to be on any social networking sites, (i said sites, msn doesn't count) well that's because i have learnt that if you really want something, sacrifices have to be made therefore, i have did the one thing i have never thought i would be able to do- i deactivated my facebook account. Even though i'm passing my days with serious withdrawal symptoms, i know it's going to be worth it. I wholeheartedly hope so. I'm really worried about only having occasional phases of anxiety that the O levels are approaching. Three weeks. It feels like i have crashed back to reality but i am still too deluded to feel the full-blown impact of the fall back to well...reality, school and life outside YOV. Hahahaha, i know right. It has been quite sometimes, 50 days since i'm out of the village yet i keep reliving the moments in my mind, i'm still unwilling to let go. Not of the memories, i don't think i will ever. It's just that i had the blast of my life that it's almost criminal (i don't think i mean this literally, i'm not really in the right state of mind at this point of time after studying for six hours straight. forgive me if it causes you any confusion whatsoever). I guess i'm slowly letting go. Well, commonwealth games is starting soon although i'm not really sure if we will see the best over there. I'm really hoping that there will be diving videos of it on youtube. Gonna get tim to help me look it up. King of diving videos, he's so obsessed. Mmhm, i wonder who's asking me all the jsb questions on formspring. :>I know that i haven't been updating much but i just wanna let all of you guys know although i'm going through all this crap that life throws at me- i am still alive and kicking. (:
Here's something:
"No I haven't fallen off the edge of the Earth. It is round, remember. No, I haven't fallen into an abyss of nothingness. Nor have I slipped into the 7th Circle of Hell on account of the fact that I already live there."
-Jane
On a side note, monochrome_93:
I know my reply is abit late, abit might be an understatement. I have put all of hardwarezone behind me, i don't even think about it. I don't even remember who wrote on it but for one thing i'm really sure of the psycho sicko that really traumatised me is the guy who speaks : "lyk tt". I'm pretty sure that you sincerely started the thread with no hidden agenda/motive but out of goodwill, on supporting team singapore. It was a kind gesture that evidently erupted into something quite unpleasant. Let's just put all these unpleasantries behind us and move on. Thank you for deleting/unquoting the post.
(she's liujiao, my china bestie! We still keep in touch and of all the photos i have taken with her, i like this the best. Credits to shane hayes which is such a surprised. Who knew he could take such a photo, it has to be because i'm in the photo that's why. Duh. And it's not everyday that i actually take a photo with my specs on or actually leave the house in it. HAHA)
oh yes, i have twitter now. HAHA
www.twitter.com/vonquixotic
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